A smorgasbord of various seared items cook in my head

Like chicken on the grill, my head sears with pain.  Only 20 minutes into my studies and the pain begins.  Slowly at first it intensifies with the passing of time.  Stopping now will not stop the burn.  Usually this pain comes after I study or focus for long periods of time never during.  I’m stuck none of the problems make sense it’s either my brain or the book, one is wrong and I’m guessing it’s me as the math problems swirl circles in my brain. The chicken continues to sear.

In this moment I want to give up, throw it all away and just let what I have gotten back be enough. If every time you tried to remember or focus for long amounts of time you got a burning headache wouldn’t you just want to leave well enough alone?

I can’t I’m so close. My high school proficiency test is in a week, so onward I must press. I can’t stop, it’s hard enough looking at a book and relearning something you know you already know but can’t remember. I want to know what I know.

I cry in frustration. The tears fall on my book. Tears have become my response to frustration, I guess in most instances these past few years pain has caused or accompanied my frustrations.

I dry my eyes after a pep talk from my mom and though she urges my to stop for the day I go back to my algebra book, skipping the problem that was sending me in circles.  My head feeling like it’s moved onto grilling a mix of vegetables.  for days with no apparent end in sight.